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IAAP Newsletter: The Unified Field

Continuing Incarnation

As I stand at the crossover point in the moment of decision, a barrage of choices present themselves to my mind. My training in group facilitation, psychotherapy, group dynamics, AND even my Attunement training dictate a series of ideas from which to draw in this circumstance. But in that split second, I become aware of another choice, vibrating at a different frequency from the ideas dashing through my head. A steadier, richer vibration humming from my heart has another direction to offer. I calm my thoughts, relax my tendency to leap into action, and breathe.

Out of my heart emerges an entirely different suggestion. As I stand in front of 25 people who are waiting for me to guide them, the suggestion is to "Let go. Let go of facilitating. Let go to love." The suggestion finally coalesces in my mind, to "find out what's in their hearts, and invite them to express it."

The idea doesn't emerge from my sophisticated set of learned tools. It's not what had been "planned" to do at that moment. But, every fiber of my being knows it is clearly the next step. So, I put aside my markers and newsprint pad, I relax my muscles which had been ready to spring into an intense, targeted brainstorming and summarizing session, and I surrender. And in that moment, as I felt the confirmation of inner and outer alignment, I remember a quote I used to read out loud to large groups of people many years ago...

"A lot of people think, or believe, or know they 'feel,' but that's thinking or believing or knowing; not feeling. Almost anybody can learn to think, or believe, or know, but not a single human being can be taught to feel. Why? Because whenever you think, or you believe, or you know, you're a lot of other people: but the moment you feel, you're nobody-but-yourself."
— Buckminster Fuller quoting an e.e. cummings thought at the beginning of his book Critical Path.

It seems to take courage to become who I truly am. I know it takes courage because whenever I do it, I feel at risk, vulnerable, scared - not emotions I wish to have or want to admit to having. But, there it is. It's scary to incarnate, to fully inhabit this human vessel on this earthly plane. Yet, it is what I chose, and continue to choose, and feel most alive when I choose. It's when I'm nobody but myself.

I find comfort in another quote that I heard recently. It was said by the dancer/choreographer Martha Graham to her colleague Agnes DeMille:

"There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. If you block it, it will never exist through any other medium.... It will be lost.... The world will never have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is, nor how it compares to other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others."
— from http://www.zilltech.com/FAQQuotesDance.html

The blessed unrest keeps me awake and intensely interested in fulfilling my divine potential and purpose. And I have the gift of conscious attunement in my every moment to illuminate and inform Life's unfolding truth with each heartbeat.

—CH